We almost made it through the long weekend. But then in the middle of it all, surrounded by screaming children in the Vancouver Aquarium, it all came back. We should have welcomed a baby this weekend. Our rainbow baby.
I knew two other girls due at the same time as me, they have both given birth to two beautiful and healthy babies. And here we are getting ready for our baseline ultrasound for our third round of IVF.
It hurts. It makes my chest constrict and it brings back the anxiety that’s hunted me since the third miscarriage. The mental anguish manifesting itself as physical pain.