Sooooo…giving up the sauce isn’t going so well.
I have been drinking less…sort of…but I have definitely not abstained from all drinking. On one hand my brain is saying “Screw it, it is the holidays!” and on the other hand my brain is saying “Oh look, something else you can’t do”.
But there is just so much socializing to be done and I guess I like to socialize with a drink. It doesn’t need to be more than one, but at least one. Plus it is much easier than announcing, “Nope, still not pregnant. Just not drinking. Seriously. Yes, I am serious. ”
So I don’t know what to do. I would like to stop beating myself up though.